maandag 5 augustus 2019

What am I feeling?

Do you know the feeling, that when you're in a crowded place your mind seems to be floating? If not, let me explain. Sit down and imagine. Imagine that you're one bristle on a hairbrush don't worry I have a point to this analogy you always have other people, or things around you to distract you. But when the brush combs through hair you are distracted from everything else, hence the floating feeling.

When someone asks me "Hey, how are you?" I never really know how to answer because I don't know what I feel. It is like I'm not sad but I don't feel good either. There is this constant dull feeling in my chest. The dull feeling isn't there only when I am wrapped up in someone else's story like a movie, or when I am doing something physical. I took up boxing lessons and those really help me focus my frustrations about everything I'm not feeling.

Do I need help or is anyone else going through this as well?